you know...I have no

 idea what to do anymore. I really dont. I hate men...their so insensitive and only

 care about one thing. I wish  that I had my own cell phone too. My mom and dad

can afford all this shit for themselves that they really dont need. but whats going

to happen to me when I get into a car accident and have no way to call anyone.

I'll be left to die. gee isnt that nice of them? oh and!@ they cashed in MY

savings bond....to by their gay fucking asses a brand new truck. like they needed

it....oh fuckign well. I'm really pissed off today ABM's an asshole...for real and

strait up  darnell....kiss my ass FELICIA. god...I'm so crabby its not funny

people just piss me off. oh well not like anyone on heres going to read this. Its

kind of like my own little journal that no one will read.

    I think that I am fat and ugly and that is the reason i dont have a b.f. I'm

scared that i wont find anyone but then again i'm scared that i will find someone

and fuck it up? whats worse....not having one, or having one and fucking it up?

thats the greatest question in the world. ANOTHER thing...my friends are so

fucking gay. Kate talks so much shit and she thinks shes cool but shes not. I

fucking hate her so much sometimes. She hits me and expects me not to hit back.

she can be as crabby as she fucking wants and expects EVERYONE to be ok with

it. but as soon as someone else is crabby. she says that we are pissing her off

and getting annoying. some friend she is. I have had such a shit day and a shit

week i am letting it all out on this gay site and gawd! ok...yikes...this isnt a

pretty side of me. ABM i love you and I miss you a lot. I wish that you and i

could talk more but you do have a life and you do go out a  lot. I think that I

just miss talking to you and I miss how you used to make me laugh....now it just

seems like I have a void in my life. but isnt that how it always is...me having a

void.

*sheds a tear*

Katie Jane